The Italian Festival.

Was actually really fun. But I do have a lot on my mind at the moment... I don't know why I keep making things so hard... But I am a boy hopper and the thing with EJ is...I like him and everything but he doesn't really know how to act. I want him to be able to act like himself around me even if we are together errr not.

But I started the festival with Nate, I mean it was fun I guess. I hated the comment I got about;; "I can't believe you dragged me here." and just little stuff like that. Then EJ showed up, which was kinda awkward since I liked him too. I don't know how he felt about it, but I could tell he was awkward. I didn't want to be all up on Nate err nothing around him so I didn't. I maybe held his hand once er twice and put my head on his chest when I didn't feel to good.

It was fun, it also made me mad when Jessica, Nate's friend, Showed up. It kinda pissed me off and how he wanted to talk to her and everything and I wanted to know why and he said because his ex and a girl he fucked does not mix with his formal girlfriend. That made me a little mad.

He went on two rides;; The Twister, twice.

Nate left earlie because he had to go home so it was just Kylee, EJ, and I for a while then we went to eat and met up with Riss and Joe.

I was telling her about my delema because it was bugging me really bad. I wanted to be with EJ because he was sweet and nice I wanted to be with Nathan because he was sweet and nice too. They both don't know how to have a relationship and Nate and I just didin't click that welll... So yeah, I broke up with Nate.

I was walking home with, Riss, Joe, EJ, Kylee, Brady, and rissa's mom when he called and I wasn't sure if it was actally what I wanted to do err not i threw my shoes and like fell on the grass at the school. It bugged me. I don't knwo why it just doesn't click like it did with Chris, Like it just seemed like he was there, I liked him. No questions asked, no confused minds. Now it's different.

I feel kinda bad for breaking up with Nathan He was good to me... to the most part, and I almost started crying when I took off his necklace before I actually sat down on my laptop.

Im kinda scared on what my mom is gonna say, she really likes Nathan and everything... But I don't know.. Just nothings the same anymore.

Im not happy that I broke up with Nathan, Im not sad that im not with him, Im not extremely happy that Im with EJ and I'm not sad either. I don't get what's going through my head. It's not supposed to be like this... Maybe I can ask EJ if we put it on hold, I think he will understand if I tell him that. But Idk. I do still wanna hang out with Nate and everything.

I liked the way we talked before we actually went out, I mean I hope he isn't extremly mad at me, and I don't know how to tell my mom either. Im really scared on the whole thing. It was just kinda eaiser when my mind was set on one person, Which it's not anymore.

I did have a lot of fun, going on the twister with Riss and Q over and over singing every song that came on the radio. It was fun the most fun I had in a while. At least, that part was.

My head is all messed up at this point... But I'm only 14. Things can't be too bad... Can they? Welp Im about to go to bed. So Later.