So Confused!!!!

Gah I need some help here.! I don't get it. Okay;; Last night my boyfriend Nathan called me and was drunk off his ass. I've been wanting to go to the Italian Festival months before school even ended, and it's finally here. TODAY!

I wanted to go with Nathan and I told him about it and we have been talking about it for like... the past three days. And last night I asked him like what was going on tomorrow I mean for like rides and everything and what was gonna happen and he had no idea what I was talking about! It made me feel kinda bad since I've been looking forward to it and he seemed like he didn't even care. And when I did tell him he said "Oh, that thing." That didn't make me feel so great.

He was telling me how he went over to his friend Jessica's house. Nate has a lot of friends that are girls, two I know and don't have a problem with, Jessica is one that I do not know and it kinda makes me a little unconfortable about the whole situation. He told me how they played water fall and got toally slammed,

I know he gets drunk and everything;; I'd rather him do it with his brothers errr something like that. I don't like it that much but I'm not going to controll him. The whole fact that he got drunk with a girl...who knows what could of happened! Okay... I know that sounds kinda like trust issues but it's true!

And I told him I didn't like it and stuff and he said "Well, if it bothers you then I just won't tell you anymore." That made me even more furous, why would you not tell me stuff im your girlfriedn!

Welp Its about noon we arn't going until six I have to call him though before he goes over to Jessicas and make sure that he actually wears something desent. If Im gonna try to look cute he can at least wear a different shirt then a wife beater. Those things are starting to get on my nerves.

Apart of me doesn't reallly even want me to be with him anymore. And the other is telling me to stay. I have a feeling today isn't going to be very fun and he's gonna make it boring. I would Rather go ith EJ.

EJ is really sweet and I was talking to him on myspace for the longest time last night and we finally both revield that we like each other. Which is a good thing in some cases. But Idk I mean I like him. But Idk if I wanna date him eerrr not we don't know each other very well. And I havn't really got that urge to be with someone since Chris. So I don't know.

I really have nothing else to say at this point. Kylee left she's goin to do her chores get a shower then come back over. Me? I guess Im gonna clean the house while my step dad sleeps for a while. I'll either write more later tonight or tomorrow before I go to my dads.

Caio!